What is it with guys like me? Yesterday at KLTI, Emmy snidely referred to me as "constantly surrounded by friends" (she actually said girls, but hey, i'm not one to toot my own horn). Gross... down right puke-worthy misconception - as Christine and Des astutely pointed out. So maybe i'm a little more boisterous and genetically constructed to be attention-seeking. I can make friends easily, sure.
But that only makes things worse. Because i am always jumping the gun when it comes to girls i find attractive. I'm so idiotic, as Chris and Des will once again - more than willingly - point out. I just seem to be so inept when it comes to things like that. I want to go from good morning to holding hands to buying her hot lingerie, just before we unlock lips for brunch. The worst part is that i think i'm on the right track, the creeping uneasiness that i feel, i convince myself that's love... cos i'm all vulnerable... gosh... i'm so full of shit. The subsequent gut wrenching, soul crushing, dissappointment will see me blaming God for making life so cruel.
Do me a favor and bellow a healthy "ha ha..." please. It is infinitely good when we can laugh at ourselves - we'll leave the crying for later. At least i'm not totally ignorant about things now. In fact, God has been awesome. He's pretty much protected me from myself this time. And it is amazing how tenderly and patiently He tolerates my tantrums. I owe You big time!
